So today I mostly just need to write to get my mind off of things. I know I’m going to spend the entire day freaking out because I have my first dermatologist appointment after work. I got a new mole on my neck sometime last year (maybe the year before) and I’ve been wanting to get it checked out since I noticed it, but I’ve been too afraid. Instead of worrying, everyone insisted I just make an appointment just to be sure it’s nothing serious. I have a few other moles I’d like to have looked at, but knowing that today’s the day has been messing with my mind ever since I made the appointment.
I’ve heard derm appointments are easy. I’ve heard they’re quick and that they can actually remove suspicious moles right in the office, but even then, I might have to wait a week to get results. I’m a dweller. I dwell on everything and I dwell until I get tested, I dwell until I get the results, and even if the results aren’t bad, I question whether they were accurate or not. I wish I could change the way my brain works, but I can’t.
The appointment is at 4:30, so I’m leaving work around 3:00 to make sure I get there on time. I’m having Wyatt take me because I’m not sure I can handle it by myself. I just keep telling myself that I’ve always had a ton of moles and this one doesn’t really look any different, so hopefully I can make it through the day without too many issues. I just hope there’s nothing wrong so I can stop worrying about it so much.
If anyone has any advice or encouraging words, feel free to send them my way. I’ll try to post an update when I get home even though I’m not sure how many people will read this. Here’s to hoping the rest of the day goes by quickly since I have to work through lunch!
*updated* I just got home a bit ago and it wasn’t a great experience but it also wasn’t the worst. They removed one mole for biopsy and scraped the one on my neck I was concerned about. Hoping everything comes back okay – I have to wait almost two weeks for the results. I also have to go back to get my stitches out in a week. Fingers crossed this was the worst of it!
*update part 2* Well sorry I suck and it’s been quite a while since all of this went down. One mole came back as nothing, the other came back slightly atypical. I have to keep an eye on that one because it could cause problems, but they’re pretty sure they got rid of the whole thing so I just have to keep up with regular skin checks. Remember to protect yourselves from the sun, kids!!