I found my old WordPress site. The amount of things I wrote was overwhelming; it took me a whole 0 seconds to read everything I’ve written! I must have been soooo motivated to have at it when I started this many moons ago. In my defense, I didn’t start taking writing seriously until I was in college for a while, so maybe that was the problem?
Case in point: I’m practically famous for starting things and giving up. I always have an excuse.Two (ish?) years ago, I bought a cute little guitar and convinced myself I was going to play. I was going to be that artsy girl that didn’t use her college degree, but was happy because she could play music and that made everything feel okay. The first few weeks went pretty well: my friend Schmeev came over and gave me some lessons, I practiced chords and reading tabs. And then I realized, like so many other things I’ve tried to get into, I was probably maybe definitely going to give up. I couldn’t play a whole song even after almost a whole month (!!!) of practicing. Basically, I wasn’t a natural born guitar player and I figured it was time to move on because I couldn’t figure out how to play the solos from any Ludo songs. Useless.
My problem is that I’m a professional perfectionist. If I can’t do it right, I don’t want to do it at all. If I don’t see progress in a short period of time, I convince myself I never will and I set my new hobbies aside before I even have time to enjoy them. Deep down, I know that playing an instrument takes years of practice (I own a drum set and I was actually pretty good at playing it after years and years and then another year of practice), I just couldn’t continue to suck at it and hope to see the light one day. I seriously need to find a way to get motivated enough to learn something, even if I suck at first.
This is supposed to be a post about motivation, but all I’ve done is bash myself and put my flaws out in the open! What a fantastic way to start my blog and introduce myself to my reader (
which is probably just going to be me so maybe I shouldn’t worry about it too much). I guess the point I’m trying to make is that when I write it down and really think about it, it all seems silly. Walking past my adorable, junior sized guitar nestled in it’s perfect case collecting dust in the corner of my parents’ basement is far from motivating. I have to learn to stick with something new long enough to learn it and find out if I actually enjoy it. Our attention spans have basically gone to sh*t withered completely away because we’re in a world that has something new to offer each and every second. We have the ability to read the latest news, check out the newest celebrity selfies (why do we care so much??), and see what our friends are up to no matter where we are or what time of day it is. It’s causing us to lose focus and lose sight of our potential. Quite frankly, it’s pretty annoying, but I’m guilty of succumbing to the same useless crap everyone else is. Oh well.
I’ve started to take baby steps to teach myself to stay motivated and do something productive every day of every week. Whether it’s making the bed first thing in the morning, taking the trash out when I get home from work, or doing a load of laundry after dinner, I try to not be a complete loaf after a day at the office, no matter how hard I want to curl up and snuggle with all of my stuffed animals and sleep for 10 hours.
Motivate yourself. Wake up two minutes earlier and make your bed, start your day by completing a task. Put your dishes away when you’re done with them (stop letting them pile up in the sink for weeks on end: that’s yucky). Clean something. Organize your wallet or purse. Pick your clothes up off of the floor and put them on a hanger. Stop living like a savage.
(In all seriousness if anyone reads this and doesn’t know me, I’m not trying to be rude, it’s supposed to be funny but most of the time people just think I’m being mean)
Hopefully I’ll stick with this. I know I’m not going to write every day. I’ll be lucky if I make time to write every week. But my hope is that it will inspire me to get away from my phone and write something. I hope that I will get out and take more pictures so I can look at something pretty instead of seeing so many words on a page. I’m tired of looking forward to things and then refusing to make time for them. I’m going to go full Shia all over this. I’m not sure if I will adopt a theme or if I’ll just post my ramblings, but I’d like to see where it goes.
In the words of the most motivational version of Shia possible, I command you to just do it. If you’re tired of starting over, stop giving up. DON’T LET YOUR DREAMS BE DREAMS!